The Final Month: Day Fourteen

Posted: July 14, 2012 in The Final Month

Resigning from a job I love that pays great was scary, but it wasn’t the scariest aspect of my decision to go to Crozet, Virginia to partner with long-time friend and mentor Walt Davis in the planting and establishing of Life Journey Church. Nor was potential poverty the hardest part of making this decision. To be honest, being broke is probably more spiritually beneficial than a life of affluence, and impoverishment wasn’t too far off from my college thoughts of putting my Bible in my backpack and just taking off to go wherever God led. To me, there was always romanticism in chasing after God regardless of where it led, be it upscale suburbia or somewhere south of the equator.

No…making a crazy decision like this wasn’t the hardest part. Dragging my wife and kids into it was.

Yeah.

See, things get a little more complicated when there’s family involved. ‘Cause then it’s not about my comfort zone anymore. It’s about theirs. It’s not about my safety anymore. It’s about theirs. I don’t have to just worry about the roof over my head or the food on my table- I have to make sure that they’re provided for. And right about there is where it dawned on me…I’m not just trusting God with my life. I’m trusting God with theirs. And I gotta be honest with ya…sometimes that’s a lot harder for me.

Somewhere in the middle of this month of trying to record daily blessings from God and moves of Divine sovereignty, I would be remiss if I didn’t mention what I would consider my second greatest blessing apart from my salvation, and that would be my marriage to my best friend and life partner, Sarai. Having her in my life is a blessing on several levels. She’s a wonderful friend, an awesome mom to my kids, an excellent stay-at-home mom who sinks countless hours into keeping our home clean and nicely decorated, teaching the kids, and keeping me in line as a minister. Beyond that, though, our marriage teaches me so much about Jesus’ relationship with His bride, of which I am graciously a part. Unfortunately, I typically see these lessons only in my own failures contrasted with Christ’s faithfulness. I really gotta find a new way to learn these things.

But I love my wife. In November we’ll be celebrating five years of marriage, and I would do it all again in a heartbeat. God has truly blessed me with her. I’m not sure what she did to deserve me, but I can’t complain about my end of the bargain!

Getting back to the point, though…I don’t know what would have happened had she been dead set against this transition. I don’t know what kind of headaches and heartbreaks would have occurred had we butted heads over my leadership in this life change. So a huge blessing in all of this is that Sarai shares my heart for this church plant. She understands. She shares in this calling. But in many ways, this move is breaking her heart. We’d be lying if we said it wasn’t. I’ve been mentally mulling a transition for over a year now, but it’s been a mere seven weeks that we knew for certain that we were leaving Indiana. So pray for her. Pray for my kids. Pray for our church family here that is losing more than just a student pastor. Transitions like this are designed to benefit the Kingdom for God’s glory, but that doesn’t mean that it’s without its sting. Pray that I can lead her better. Pray that I can love her more faithfully. Pray that I can be the follower of Christ, the husband, the father, and the pastor that God has called me to be.

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